"Trust is like a vase.. once it's broken, though you can
fix it the vase will never be same again.”
BROKEN TRUST......ever been there?
BROKEN TRUST......ever spent sleepless nights because of it?
BROKEN TRUST......ever felt your stomach eat itself through the lining?
BROKEN TRUST......ever been so confused with what is real and what is not ?
BROKEN TRUST......ever feel like your entire world has just turned upside down?
BROKEN TRUST......ever feel like dieing?
Have you ever just been totally blinded by your affection with another that you over look every warning sign.? Have you ever came upon warning signs that are as real as your hand and when you tried to question them about it, you were made to feel like you were doing something wrong even thinking that they had anything to do with it, yet in your guts you could not feel that you were wrong?Have you ever brought solid issues up to your partner, because you just need to know, and all they do is get angry and accuse you of not trusting them?
I believe, just because you question your partner about an issue does so not mean that you lack TRUST or LOVE. Matters of the heart are very tricky to deal with. One can become very defensive and take any question as a personal attack. That is why emotional wars in any relationship are so draining and confusing. No one wants to mistrust their partner, but what shud one do when certain signs keep coming up again and again over a period of time? Love is only so blind. Because of your love for your partner and the desire to keep things happy, you stay quiet and try to "Let it go". Then you find yourself mistrusting even more because you are forced to decide about things in your own mind, for fear of being wrong again. This is where a communication break down occurs between two people in a relationship. Once that happens, both parties are on separate roads going separate places and sometime never ever meeting on the same road again.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Broken Heart!!!!
"A broken heart, Mended with sweet words, Just to be broken again"
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.
I Know how it feels when everyone says that everything gonna be alright, nothing goes right and u r just a listener....
I knw how it feels .... Feels like I'm drowning, I'm screaming for air, Louder I'm crying And you don't even care....
I know I'm not the most beautiful girl in the world or even the most exciting person you'll ever meet but I do know that no matter how long & hard you search, you'll never find someone who loves & cares about you as much as i do ... I knw how it feels when u want to say something and could not ....... Some feelings stops u to express urself, some thinking stops u......
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who repesents you, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...
I knw how it feels, when you dream for something and get the opposite, when u have to compromise in every field, when you have to act on others instructions, when you cannot utter a word ....
I knw exactly how it feels...............................................
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.
I Know how it feels when everyone says that everything gonna be alright, nothing goes right and u r just a listener....
I knw how it feels .... Feels like I'm drowning, I'm screaming for air, Louder I'm crying And you don't even care....
I know I'm not the most beautiful girl in the world or even the most exciting person you'll ever meet but I do know that no matter how long & hard you search, you'll never find someone who loves & cares about you as much as i do ... I knw how it feels when u want to say something and could not ....... Some feelings stops u to express urself, some thinking stops u......
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who repesents you, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...
I knw how it feels, when you dream for something and get the opposite, when u have to compromise in every field, when you have to act on others instructions, when you cannot utter a word ....
I knw exactly how it feels...............................................
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Help me finding myself!!!!!
Shubhali!!!! was the name of a girl who used to live her life to the fullest ... who was cheerful, chirpy, smily, used to burst in laughing ... Was able to forget all the mishappenings, never tensed, never thought in deep, never used to be sad.........
NOW, Shubhali!!!! is the name of a girl who has forgotten everything, who like to be silent, who like not to smile, who like not to sing, who like to think in vague, who like to cry now, who like to think negative .... and why this drastic change, not even she understands ......
Now do not have any more tolerance, any more power, any more stemina to believe anyone now .. why feel like dying every minute ...
dont even want to write any more now .............
I have lost Shubhali ... I want her back .......
ANY HOW!!!
NOW, Shubhali!!!! is the name of a girl who has forgotten everything, who like to be silent, who like not to smile, who like not to sing, who like to think in vague, who like to cry now, who like to think negative .... and why this drastic change, not even she understands ......
Now do not have any more tolerance, any more power, any more stemina to believe anyone now .. why feel like dying every minute ...
dont even want to write any more now .............
I have lost Shubhali ... I want her back .......
ANY HOW!!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Why always WE??????????????
GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!
GIRL!!!!! is the most beautiful creature of God... U can feel her affection in the form of a Mother, her care in the form of a sister, her sensual love in the form of a Wife and her warmth in the form of a friend ... We have emotions, feelings, strength, tolerability, forgiveness, understanding and patience ... We know how to compromise, how to love, how to be passionate about something and how to get along ... We impart whatever we have ... We believe in giving rather taking ... We know our limits and capabilities ..
But then, the question which most of the times come to my mind and disturbs me is why always girls are being questioned or harrassed??? Why do we have to answer for every happening around us, why always we have to bear, why always we have to compromise to the highest extent ... Why always our patience is tested, why always we made to listen to the instructions, why do we have to loose our identity, why do we have to answer every bloody question ...
We do all this to an extent to keep our loved ones happy, but yes lemme tell you if we can bear, we can protest also ... A Spring ... the more you press it, the more it will jump ... We are not puppets, we have our own individuality .. Its we, because of whom the world is there and people get birth . .. Just need to tell you that we all have our own identity and if we are molested we can make anyone's life hell .....
Do not take us for granted .. Our silence is our strength and our care for you, do not mistake it as our weakness ....
The more we get love, affection and respect, the more we impart it ..............
GIRL!!!!! is the most beautiful creature of God... U can feel her affection in the form of a Mother, her care in the form of a sister, her sensual love in the form of a Wife and her warmth in the form of a friend ... We have emotions, feelings, strength, tolerability, forgiveness, understanding and patience ... We know how to compromise, how to love, how to be passionate about something and how to get along ... We impart whatever we have ... We believe in giving rather taking ... We know our limits and capabilities ..
But then, the question which most of the times come to my mind and disturbs me is why always girls are being questioned or harrassed??? Why do we have to answer for every happening around us, why always we have to bear, why always we have to compromise to the highest extent ... Why always our patience is tested, why always we made to listen to the instructions, why do we have to loose our identity, why do we have to answer every bloody question ...
We do all this to an extent to keep our loved ones happy, but yes lemme tell you if we can bear, we can protest also ... A Spring ... the more you press it, the more it will jump ... We are not puppets, we have our own individuality .. Its we, because of whom the world is there and people get birth . .. Just need to tell you that we all have our own identity and if we are molested we can make anyone's life hell .....
Do not take us for granted .. Our silence is our strength and our care for you, do not mistake it as our weakness ....
The more we get love, affection and respect, the more we impart it ..............
Friday, December 12, 2008
Precious Gifts ....
GIFTS ..... Expensive or loveable
Someone asked me today "Why girls expect precious gifts???" And i really couldn't asnwer him ..
Since then I m struggling with all the thoughts coming to my mind and facts that world, especially guys does not knw, may be ......
As far as I knw abt girls' feelings, their emotions, thinking and demands, they like gifts and moreover surprise gifts but they need not be expensive ...
In my point of view, two people exchange gifts only when they have immense love in between them as friends or so ....
For girls, who is presenting the gift and on what occasion it is being presented is more important then what is being gifted ...
Anything presented with love and happiness is accepted by girls ...
A simple flower, a teddybear, a card with lovely saying, a ring any such thing which expresses the emotions is liked by girls ....
This is what used to happen or what I knw abt girls .. May be, It is possible that the times have changed now and girls might be expecting expensive gifts, But in that case love will not be present in between those two ppl .....
This is my point of view, which I wanted to share ...
I dont knw abt others ..................................................
Someone asked me today "Why girls expect precious gifts???" And i really couldn't asnwer him ..
Since then I m struggling with all the thoughts coming to my mind and facts that world, especially guys does not knw, may be ......
As far as I knw abt girls' feelings, their emotions, thinking and demands, they like gifts and moreover surprise gifts but they need not be expensive ...
In my point of view, two people exchange gifts only when they have immense love in between them as friends or so ....
For girls, who is presenting the gift and on what occasion it is being presented is more important then what is being gifted ...
Anything presented with love and happiness is accepted by girls ...
A simple flower, a teddybear, a card with lovely saying, a ring any such thing which expresses the emotions is liked by girls ....
This is what used to happen or what I knw abt girls .. May be, It is possible that the times have changed now and girls might be expecting expensive gifts, But in that case love will not be present in between those two ppl .....
This is my point of view, which I wanted to share ...
I dont knw abt others ..................................................
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Marriage
"Arranged and Love marriage"
Today I got a good news for which I was waiting for a long time .. My cousin is ready to get married now and finally she got engaged.... M so happy for her .. She was against arrange marriage saying that "If I do not knw a person, how can I marry him"... Here the person whom she doesn't knw is chosen by her parents and parents can never think wrong for their childeren ... parents have more experience then us and they can see far more than us .......
It is not the case that arrange marriages does not have problems ... but as per my expirience and knwledge love marriages also have problems and that too more than an arrange marriage...
My sister is finally doing and arranged marriage and she is happy about it .. when she was in between 20-24 she was after love marriage and now she thinks arranged marriage would be good for her .... May this is a matter of age ...
Mine is arranged marriage and i never met my husband before marriage .. We spent whole one year in understanding each other and now we are very happy with each other (touch wood) ....
I dont understand why people do not listen to their parents .. Why they go against their parents in every respect .. What do they want to show??????
Anyways my point of view is "arranged marriage is better than love marriage" .. and as time passess may be my views change ...
What about you...........................................................
Today I got a good news for which I was waiting for a long time .. My cousin is ready to get married now and finally she got engaged.... M so happy for her .. She was against arrange marriage saying that "If I do not knw a person, how can I marry him"... Here the person whom she doesn't knw is chosen by her parents and parents can never think wrong for their childeren ... parents have more experience then us and they can see far more than us .......
It is not the case that arrange marriages does not have problems ... but as per my expirience and knwledge love marriages also have problems and that too more than an arrange marriage...
My sister is finally doing and arranged marriage and she is happy about it .. when she was in between 20-24 she was after love marriage and now she thinks arranged marriage would be good for her .... May this is a matter of age ...
Mine is arranged marriage and i never met my husband before marriage .. We spent whole one year in understanding each other and now we are very happy with each other (touch wood) ....
I dont understand why people do not listen to their parents .. Why they go against their parents in every respect .. What do they want to show??????
Anyways my point of view is "arranged marriage is better than love marriage" .. and as time passess may be my views change ...
What about you...........................................................
Monday, December 8, 2008
My Luck
Today!!!!!!
I m juggling balls between luck and life ... Today could be my luckiest day of the life till now, But unfortunately i couldn't grab it .... And on the other part i could have made my life worst today, but luckily i saved it today .... I dont knw I should be happy today or worried .. but yes if i think from the point of a girl, i m happy.... if i think from the point of a lady, I m worried, feeling unlucky.....
Well.... will wait for another 15 days now to get the immense happiness....
Lets hope for the best
I m juggling balls between luck and life ... Today could be my luckiest day of the life till now, But unfortunately i couldn't grab it .... And on the other part i could have made my life worst today, but luckily i saved it today .... I dont knw I should be happy today or worried .. but yes if i think from the point of a girl, i m happy.... if i think from the point of a lady, I m worried, feeling unlucky.....
Well.... will wait for another 15 days now to get the immense happiness....
Lets hope for the best
Friday, December 5, 2008
I DONT UNDERSTAND
I DONT UNDERSTAND.......
(1) Why people think so small .. so negative .. so wierd .. so strange .. so different...
(2) Why people are jealous of others... Why do they just dont mind their own business .. Why are they interested in other's life ... My papa used to say if someone is jealous of you, that means you are going in the right direction and getting success .. But still, what I think is if people does not have caliber to move ahead and get success in life, why are they jealous of others and crib about them ...
(3) Why people smoke .. when they knw that smoking is not good for health .. One day I went to a friend who was smoking and asked him to give me one cigerrette .. he firmly said "shubhali, smoking is not good for health".. so when he knws that it is not good for health, why does he smoke???? couldn't get the answer yet...
(4) I dont understand why people have the complex and feel themselves lesser then others .. due to which they tend to insult others in front of everyone .. They cannot be happy in others happiness ..Why do they pressurize others to listen to them and follow their instructions ... If I m doing everything I can for others, why cant they support me in my deeds ... Why do i have to follow their instructions all the time....
(5) I dont understand why people compare to each other, which creates complex, which leads to insults and hence a tensed or broken relationship ... I never compare anything from anyone .. but people compare simple things with me and get irritated .. I never wanted to show them down, but they feel it and hence creates problems for me and themselves unknowingly .....
(6) I dont understand why I cannot say anything to anyone in this world .. Why people think that i m an ocean which can bear everything in it ...which can cover anything in it and won't say a single word ... wont give any expression regarding this ... wont feel any frustrations, grievances .. I dont understand why they feel that i m a stone who can bear everything...
I DONT UNDERSTAND why all this is happening and what should be my reaction ..........
(1) Why people think so small .. so negative .. so wierd .. so strange .. so different...
(2) Why people are jealous of others... Why do they just dont mind their own business .. Why are they interested in other's life ... My papa used to say if someone is jealous of you, that means you are going in the right direction and getting success .. But still, what I think is if people does not have caliber to move ahead and get success in life, why are they jealous of others and crib about them ...
(3) Why people smoke .. when they knw that smoking is not good for health .. One day I went to a friend who was smoking and asked him to give me one cigerrette .. he firmly said "shubhali, smoking is not good for health".. so when he knws that it is not good for health, why does he smoke???? couldn't get the answer yet...
(4) I dont understand why people have the complex and feel themselves lesser then others .. due to which they tend to insult others in front of everyone .. They cannot be happy in others happiness ..Why do they pressurize others to listen to them and follow their instructions ... If I m doing everything I can for others, why cant they support me in my deeds ... Why do i have to follow their instructions all the time....
(5) I dont understand why people compare to each other, which creates complex, which leads to insults and hence a tensed or broken relationship ... I never compare anything from anyone .. but people compare simple things with me and get irritated .. I never wanted to show them down, but they feel it and hence creates problems for me and themselves unknowingly .....
(6) I dont understand why I cannot say anything to anyone in this world .. Why people think that i m an ocean which can bear everything in it ...which can cover anything in it and won't say a single word ... wont give any expression regarding this ... wont feel any frustrations, grievances .. I dont understand why they feel that i m a stone who can bear everything...
I DONT UNDERSTAND why all this is happening and what should be my reaction ..........
Thursday, December 4, 2008
LIKES
THINGS I LIKE THE MOST
(1) I like watching movies a lot on 70 mm screen ... Watching a movie on the big screen is actually amazing .. but I hardly go to watch the movies there ... Still whenever I get opportunity i never miss it.........
(2) I like eating Rice ... with any combination ...
(3) I like dancing a lot ..... Lemme tell you one thing abt me .. When I was a kid i used to dance 6-8 hrs a day ... then due to studies my this hobby was lessened but whenever i get time and feel happy i used to dance .. now i m asthemetic .. cannot dance for longer .. but still never miss any opportunity to dance.....
(4) I have a very wierd hobby .. When i was a teenager i used to climb trees ... like mango tree etc which are quite big and used to study there .. and when got tired after studying used to sleep there itself .... I used to do this till I was in class X .. then one day my papa saw me sleeping on the tree ..since then never climbed up .... Funny na.. I knw still liked doing it .......
(5) I like being with people i like ... I can spend as much time as I have with the people of similar mindset ...
(6) I like badminton as a sport, however i always been a winner of douch ball (game played in childhood) .. But now if someone wants me to spend time in sports in will play Badminton ... In indoor games i played Chess so many times but won just once ...... However i like playing Ludo ...
(7) I like taking challenges .... I feel challenges are the best way to chk ur capability and show ur potential .. I knw somewhere taking challenges are risky for me .. Still to show my one self i can take any possible challenge .... and being positive towards challenges, i have learned lot of this as I tool challenge given by someone ... So i m happy that i m open to possible challenges...
(8) I like searching positives in every aspect of life and every person ... I like being happy.. I like laughing to its fullest (however it is not good for my health as i m asthematic and get an attack while laughing also) .. But still if I life give me a setback I should not sit back and wear that thing on me .. Remember I like taking challenges ...
(1) I like watching movies a lot on 70 mm screen ... Watching a movie on the big screen is actually amazing .. but I hardly go to watch the movies there ... Still whenever I get opportunity i never miss it.........
(2) I like eating Rice ... with any combination ...
(3) I like dancing a lot ..... Lemme tell you one thing abt me .. When I was a kid i used to dance 6-8 hrs a day ... then due to studies my this hobby was lessened but whenever i get time and feel happy i used to dance .. now i m asthemetic .. cannot dance for longer .. but still never miss any opportunity to dance.....
(4) I have a very wierd hobby .. When i was a teenager i used to climb trees ... like mango tree etc which are quite big and used to study there .. and when got tired after studying used to sleep there itself .... I used to do this till I was in class X .. then one day my papa saw me sleeping on the tree ..since then never climbed up .... Funny na.. I knw still liked doing it .......
(5) I like being with people i like ... I can spend as much time as I have with the people of similar mindset ...
(6) I like badminton as a sport, however i always been a winner of douch ball (game played in childhood) .. But now if someone wants me to spend time in sports in will play Badminton ... In indoor games i played Chess so many times but won just once ...... However i like playing Ludo ...
(7) I like taking challenges .... I feel challenges are the best way to chk ur capability and show ur potential .. I knw somewhere taking challenges are risky for me .. Still to show my one self i can take any possible challenge .... and being positive towards challenges, i have learned lot of this as I tool challenge given by someone ... So i m happy that i m open to possible challenges...
(8) I like searching positives in every aspect of life and every person ... I like being happy.. I like laughing to its fullest (however it is not good for my health as i m asthematic and get an attack while laughing also) .. But still if I life give me a setback I should not sit back and wear that thing on me .. Remember I like taking challenges ...
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